Lame update

It's been a while since I have been avidly blogging and to anyone who may actually care, I am sorry about that. I sort of lost touch with myself so therefore had nothing to say. More on that later.

It's almost Easter time and I think I am just as excited as I am at Christmas. Jeremy and I joined The Disney Club for Kaylee and we got her four movies for her Easter basket. We got A Bugs Life, Cars, Pocahontas and Mulan. I have never actually seen Mulan (much to my best friends dismay) so Kaylee and I will be sharing this experience.

Almost directly after Easter I will be in full swing of getting stuff pulled together for Kaylee's birthday party in July. I know it seems a bit early but it's a rather in depth party and there is tons to be done. She is having sort of a carnival type party with games, food and prizes. I am so excited. I am also dreading trying to fit the rest of summer in between my planning. We have LOTS of summer birthdays in my family. Not to mention hiking, Fathers Day, amusement parks, picnics and the list goes on. I am hoping to have a blast this summer. The one major thing that's going to bring my summer down is Aunt Kelly is not going to be able to make it for a visit this summer D=!

Back to the me losing touch with myself thing. 

I went through another stint of depression. This time was worse then any time that I can remember in a really long time. Finally one day I realized that no amount of music, medication or supposed words of wisdom would pull me out of this slump. I have to do it myself. No matter what I do, I have RA. There is no cure and it sucks but I can do my best to live with it and surround myself with people who are willing to learn about the disease and help me live with it. I can't do anything about my disorders either. They exist but I can do my best to control them. I took myself off my mood pills and I feel a little better. The migraines are more consistent but I don't feel like I live in a dark hole everyday

My weight however can be changed so I started counting my calories and going for walks. I am doing my best to not get discouraged. I am also trying to accept that I am not always going to be bright and shiny. I am trying to learn that losing and maintaining weight is a process and it's life long. It won't happen over night.

I am still trying to deal with the fact that I dread going into public and looking in mirrors. Baby steps are better than nothing I suppose.

I know that I am putting myself out there and making myself vulnerable but I feel that it was time to be honest. Not only with myself but to the people I care about. This is the best way I know how.

On a slightly lighter note, my house is just about spotless. Thank you spring cleaning.

I am also purging my house of all the useless crap and having a yard sale with Kelli on May 7. I am pretty excited at the prospect of making a little extra cash for Kaylee's party.

I hope you enjoyed this lame update and I hope to be back to blogging more often. I think that may actually happen since I have picked up reading again. I am currently reading "Wicked" and "The Great Gatsby". Both of which seem blog worthy so far. 

Until next time you should click the link below to read some of Jeremy's work. You won't be disapointed. Expecially if you like Zombies. If you don't, lets face it, we all know someone who does so you could pass the story along to them.

Myth and Legend