Lets Talk About The 'C' Word.

Hello friends!

Thanks for coming back for another edition of my ramblings :-D

I would like to talk c-sections this time.

More specifically, my personal experience with them.

When I was pregnant with my first daughter, my doctor informed me that because of my height that there was a possibility for a c section.

As the pregnancy progressed, it was looking more and more like I would be able to deliver naturally.

This thrilled me because surgery scared the hell out of me.

Still does!

Well, on July 14th (3 days before my given due date) I went to the hospital with my contractions 6 minutes apart.

Long story short, I labored for 12 hours.

The doc came in and told me that my dilatation was not progressing and that I needed a c section.
That's the only explanation that I received. Before I could ask any questions, he was gone.

Being a first time mom, young and scared out of my mind I didn't know what to ask but it would have been nice to be given the option.
We didn't know what to do so we did what he suggested.

I have never regretted that decision. 

At least not until recently.

Week before last we had our fetal growth appointment to check on Sophia.

Our MFM doctor told us that everything looked good for a VBAC but we should discuss it with our regular OB since she'd be the one who is delivering Sophia and tracking my progress.
We had that appointment the next day.

While we were there she informed me that with all the medical issues that I have been having and the fact that I am in and out of the ER for pain control, a c-section would probably be in the best interest of both the baby and I.

I was crushed.

Over the next few days I was really down about the whole situation.

I felt  like I failed as a woman because my body won't do what it's suppose to.

I started searching for some articles and blogs to help me feel a little better about it.

Thankfully, the blogs and the out pouring of support that I have received from my friends and family have helped make me feel a lot better about the whole situation.

What has me most upset right now is the more research I do and the more doctors I talk to, I am starting to realize that my first c-section was probably unnecessary.
My medical team agrees.

Here's what makes me believe this to be true.
(Other than the medical team agreeing with me)

Lets start with the fact that the Dr. who delivered Kaylee is no longer licensed to care for pregnant women or their babies.

Next, he NEVER offered me an alternative. 

Not once did he suggest anything that could help my labor progress naturally.

My water had not broke and my membranes were still in tact.
My contractions were 4 minutes apart but they never did a scan to see where she was positioned or anything.
The doctor gave the word and I was prepped and wheeled into the O.R.
Quick and dirty.
I am grateful that Kaylee is here and she is healthy but I can't help but to feel a little vilotaed and cheated out of a very personal and wonderful experience.

Have any of you c-section mommy's ever felt like you were forced into a cesarean section?
What were your circumstances and experiences?

*MFM - Maternal Fetal Medicine
*VBAC - Vaginal Birth After Cesarean Section