Bittersweet Days.

Today I am heartbroken and hopeful.

I know, talk about bipolar, right?

I MUST be having some kind of pregnant thing going on.

I wish it were just that.

Tomorrow morning, My sister and her family leave for Florida. 

For good.

This includes her children, who along with my own kids, are my heart.

I am not angry like a lot of people in their lives are.

I am hopeful.

I am hopeful that they find fulfillment and all the things they are looking for out there.

I am heartbroken because my house is going to be very empty on the weekends.

Our family gatherings are going to be incomplete.

They will not be here for the birth of my daughter.

I will be sad every time I remember that I can't just go pick the kids up for an ice cream and Disney Movie sleep over.

But these are all very selfish reasons for being sad.

Selfish reasons for wanting them to stay.

Since I really want to be supportive and not selfish I want to send all my love with them to Florida.

I want to send a billion night time kisses to my nieces and nephews.

I want to send the memories of glasses of wine and falling asleep through Buffy with Stevee.

I love you guys.

I miss you already.

You're visit can't come soon enough!

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